Lost in Motherhood: How to Revisit Yourself


I notice many moms experience a great deal of sadness when thinking back to life before baby. Sometimes you miss her don’t you? The person you were before you became lost in motherhood. Please don’t feel consider yourself a bad mom for feeling this way, you are not hurting your child(ren)’s feelings. In fact, you are doing great by yourself and your child(ren) when you wish to revisit the parts of yourself you relinquished in the name of motherhood. Of course, motherhood may include changes we cant avoid but its okay to pay yourself a visit sometimes.

Lost In Motherhood: How To Revisit Yourself

January 2014. My paper journal.
Twenty two months postpartum.

Dear Journal,

I’m only [about] two years in and I feel like I’m at the point of losing myself. Motherh
ood should be one of my greatest transitions of womanhood. I should be ecstatic but I’m not.

While pregnant with my daughter, I was repeatedly warned about motherhood and its negative impact. This meant no more sleep, no more alone time, and no more fun. What I noticed was, no one really told me about the joys of motherhood and it was pretty scary.

When she finally arrived I was so happy. I prepared to be the ultimate mom, doing any and everything to avoid being judged by the outside world. It was to a point where I barely wanted anyone to help (even though I had tons) because I thought it would make me a weak and lazy mother. For a while, I thought if your world didn’t revolve around your children and everything they needed, you were selfish.

I became miserable. So miserable that I would go as far as to imagine my funeral, my burial, and what my headstone would read:

Here Lies Katry.
She became a mom and then she died.
SEP. 27th – MOTHERHOOD

I would think, is it happening? Am I on the brink of disappearing completely? Until the day came when I told Lei’s dad, “here, take the baby” before going on one of the longest walks I’ve ever been on. I needed time to think, reevaluate my life as a mother, and relocate my true self. That’s when the “revolution” began.

HOW TO REVISIT YOURSELF WHEN YOU BECOME LOST IN MOTHERHOOD

Its okay to want to revisit yourself. There is more to your life than just being “somebody’s mama”. Of course being just a mom isn’t a bad thing, but motherhood is tough and it is easy to lose yourself. You put all your focus into your children + everyone else and before you know it, you’re on your deathbed realizing you’ve never done anything else fulfilling.

You may feel because you have the privilege of raising children, you should just “be grateful”. It may not occur to you that making yourself a priority is something that should continue once the babies get here. Self care will never be selfish, and putting yourself at the top of your list again gives you a chance to be you the person and not just you the mom.

Revisiting yourself can also benefit your children. Since we are our children’s first role models, It is more than imperative for us to help them cultivate a sense of self/identity. That often starts with first setting an example by doing the same for ourselves.

WHEN LOST IN MOTHERHOOD, YOU CAN REVISIT YOURSELF BY:

Going for a walk by yourself

Not only is walking an underrated form of exercise, talking walks gives you space to clear your head or take a breather. You may even come up with some cool ideas during your walk.

Curling up with a favorite book alone

According to an article at Healthline, reading has many benefits. Check them out!

Taking yourself on a date

Taking yourself on a date is an act of self love. You get to learn more about yourself, your likes and dislikes, and there’s always the thrill of trying something new.

FINDING A NEW HOBBY

Finding new hobbies have their benefits. They can make you more creative, clear your mind, or even become a source of income.

REVISITING AN OLD HOBBY

What are those fulfilling things you used to do before becoming a mom? Do you miss it? Why not revisit it to see if you’re still good at them? If not, so what! The fun is in trying.

OR JUST GOING TO SLEEP

Parenting is exhausting. Why not leave the kid(s) with your partner while you get some much needed shut eye? You can sleep better knowing someone is there to take care of things for a while. If a partner isn’t available, ask a family member or trusted friend who is willing.

To every mom: You are allowed to love and provide for your children while living a life of balance. You are allowed to maintain a career, start or go back to school, build a business, or have fulfilling hobbies. Having a life of balance is one the greatest acts of wellness for a mother- or any person. You don’t have to give up anything because the world tells you to.

ARE YOU FEELING LOST IN MOTHERHOOD? HOW DO YOU PLAN ON REVISITING YOURSELF?

How To Find Yourself When You've Become Lost in  Motherhood